I Want To Thank You | almamyrtle.com

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, which I often feel isn't big enough for the pain & darkness in this world, and too weak to withstand it. Thank you for checking up on me. You really don't know what it means to have that many people who aren't related to you show even the slightest concern and love. If you do know, then...yeah...you know what that feels like. Some of you don't even know me personally but you had the human and soul decency to check up on me. That was a strange vacation; it was lovely as ever filled with so much love and adventure but then there was London Bridge. That will always be a scary "almost" for me. I waited for the bus to London Bridge for about 5 mins. then I changed my mind. I wanted to have dinner right down there until around 10:15, then head home. The next day, I kept asking Spirit if I should walk down there and lay flowers and say prayers but I was told "NO" every single time. Well, I attempted to walk down there anyway and when I go to Leadenhall St., I started to feel sick in my throat and I lost balance. I will forever be thankful to God for giving me the gift of choice... . I feel guilty that I wasn't able to help, to save someone. Im so physically strong. I just know that I could have hidden some people or something. This is what Im thinking...Im just thinking .Im just typing away... This wasn't easy. It still isn't. You don't forget something like that. Now, imagine what the people and children...who saw what happened are dealing with. I kept saying to myself "If it's this hard for me and I have no appetite and the scenery is dark then it must be hell for them." God, I don't know what else to say here. Just please pray for those who endure terror and pain. Love them. just say "I Love you" to them even if you don't know them. say it in your head and in your heart. Thank you & God bless you and your life. God is always good. God is good and good is good, never evil. this is posted on my website as well. thank you.