When Someone Is Ashamed Of You | almamyrtle.com

People avoid saying exactly what it is that I do out of shame. Ain't that about a bitch? People are ashamed of my job...of me...of what I love. Of how I love. It's painful & angersome to have people in your life who refuse to show you support because they think some how that you are wrong for engaging in something that is very much who you are. Like what you're doing is dirty, nasty, should be censored. For Christ's sake, calm the fuck down & stop coupling spirituality with demonic possession. For anyone who is confused, this is what I do: People email/message me from all over the world/ come into the bookstore that I work at as a reader & I read people based on the information that comes to me. I use a paper & pen, my finger to my palm to write in it & sometimes, I use a form of non-traditional tarot to release the information that comes through for each person. It's not something that I learned in school. It's something that Im more familiar with than riding a bike or even remembering how old I am. It's me. It's just here in me. It's another way in which I communicate with my earth family. I also work at my friend's vintage store(so much fun. too much to explain here). I also have a degree in journalism from SUNY Purchase(I won't list all of places/channels that I worked for). Back to my psychic work: I am in the reading arts. I have carved my own path within it. Im self-made & it's tricky. Don't you think that I'd do what you think I should be doing wth my life if it it were as easy for me as you've made it out to be? So just because you can do what you do with ease, I should buckle down and do the same? Fuck that. You should not attempt to do what I do and I would never ask you to try to out of shame & pity. I didn't plan this path so intentionally. Things like becoming who you are just happen in life, understand? I have to stay focused on who and what I love. I thought that I'd go on to do what everyone else around me expected me to do in life. In my 20's, my ideas & my dreams to SO MANY of my friends & family was not right. My goals were not good enough. I stopped telling people things in my mid to late 20's. Strangely enough, these naysayers were the very people who would ask me time after time to tell them what I see in their future. Doing what everyone wanted me to do clearly never worked out. I don't know any of the people that come to me(aside from regulars) but my love for helping them wipes out the doubt that negative people have tried to embed in me. I dream about/hear from people that I do not know & then through God's grace, I am able to help people with what comes through. This is not a new thing in my life. It doesn't go away not matter how afraid or "over it" you or anyone (even me) becomes. I use my notebook a pen & I also use my finger & my palm to write out the information that is given to me. Many of my closest family members & even some of my closest friends are my biggest non-supporters. Fortunately, the weight of that is being lifted these days. Thanks to God & incredible strangers who have come into my life & shown me what support truly is, Im starting to feel like I'm on the right path again. On a daily basis, I receive such a profound lack of support from some people that I've come to a point where I've started deleting people from my Facebook and/or have hidden my newsfeed from a select few. I also get"What do you do?" even though my website is in plain sight here on my Facebook AND on ALL of my social media accounts.

For anyone who holds some sort of shame or some kind of "support" that hails mainly from a blind spot of fear & ignorance(you know how you are), remember this: You are wasting so much energy on doubting me. Pay attention & fuel your own dreams. Your shame is based on your fear of your own psychic abilities and...your fear of being sensitive in this insensitive world. As for you using your religion to bat down my work & abilities, you're an idiot. I promise you that you are an idiot. Sit in a church and be psychic. You won't burn in hell for that. Speaking of hell, stop looking for it for you are already in it. If you cannot bring yourself to shed light & put the fires out while you're here on earth, keep your mouth shut and stop judging people based on what your ignorance tells you.