2016: I Don't Know What To Title This | almamyrtle.com

This year has been a powerful year for me. Last year a very gifted seer told me that I would be faced with a handful of very intense situations that would require me to speak up for myself & for the people around me. She said that going through these events would cause my gifts to strengthen/Id become more grounded within my body & mind. When I heard this, I felt a knot in my stomach form then double in size, then fizzle into burning stomach acid.

I struggle with being "mom" ,"guardian" ,"speaker" ,"teacher" or "protector" to others. In fact, Im not even keen on being those things to myself to some degree because I struggle with resentment for having to raise myself as I was growing up. And although Im currently releasing this resentment, it's a tough bite to let go of and sometimes, i don't want to let go of its familiar taste. I do however, practice deep breathing around it. I also treat myself as a mother would a child who does a good job at something important.

On the other side, I genuinely enjoy helping others. And as I get through my own stuff, I am rapidly embracing the idea that people often see the qualities mentioned above("speaker", "guide" etc...) within me. Through my realization, I can see now & more accept that people seek my services because they are drawn to these qualities along with my essence attached to them. By the way, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

As I listened to the seer speak, I couldn't help but realize that I would be standing around in certain situations that I would typically back out of. I just like to keep to myself and mind my own business, you know? I'll step in and hold doors, pick something up for someone if they drop it or even compliment another woman out in public, but other than that Im not one to get into people's stuff. Some seers do that but I don't unless Im given a very strong nudge from spirit to follow through.

Im also afraid to get involved in other people's business because I had a very bad/life altering experience in the past that involved 2 people. In the end, these individuals turned on me so from there, I told God that I would no longer step in for others unless it was through my work.

Anyway, the seer mentioned that these big events would be life changing for me & that through them, I will become less afraid of using my ability to speak up. She said that I would be able to drive my point & deliver perspectives so powerful that they will have the potential to change the course of the situation at hand. She also said that I would have to stand my ground by not backing down to people who insist on keeping themselves & others in the dark about certain realities/situations. This was VERY hard to hear. I did not like this information especially because she said "people" not "a person". In other words, it would be me against a bunch of people.

This year, I found myself facing myself & asking "Well, what are you going to do? You have to protect me. How will you get me through this?" When you find yourself asking yourself to do reliable honorable things for yourself, it can feel like a reality check that goes beyond the usual perspective of everyday life. What I mean is, if you are truly in that elevated place where you feel your heart and soul talking to you, you feel less attached to the earthly mind and more in touch with why you are here on this planet. That's what I felt like nearly everyday of this year.

Among a bunch of events, here are 2 things that I encountered this year and came out of:

I won a legal battle(It was me against a fashion company).

Witness a man get hit by a car. The man was O.K. but I was able to get photos of the driver, his license and get him to stop his vehicle and take responsibility for what he had done.

This journey has been one that has made me strong but also tired. I can say that changing my diet, which is next as they are doctor's orders, will help me get back into things.

Im leaving this year behind now. Im thankful. Im walking forward now.

❤

Alma